Is It wRong To Say Out What hAve BeEn bothRing ME WithIn???

2008-09-13T22:27:00.002+08:00

Okay. Its been a long time since i blog. I've been mugging thats why. Prelims was like almost a disaster. It is like physics was a total failure. then the history test, i skip SBQ. come on who is much worst then me? i think the rest of my class mates did better cos i can see them smiling? Boon huat, maggie cheng siang, even amandis. i got to buck up or my goal will not be achieve.
okay malay. got B3 in te O level then prelim got another B3. WTF! its like its not worth it. sometimes i may look confident in the outside but thats all my facial expressions. dun be fool. for those who are close to me, know me. Maybe i am just a lose but am i? i'm not. i tried and tried but still it does not help. learning experience? yah i know. i've heard abt it. but realli its hard.
i regretted everything i did. expressing my feelings to someone. playing psp in class. not paying attention to mr ow when he talks. playing soccer everyday. i realli regretted it. if onli if i can turn time around.its like 1 month to the the big O and i'm still playing psp. wads this? disciplined myself? i tried but the temptation is very great. talking abt love? it was realli foolish of me. thinking abt myself, always attracting attention and more. and i'm sorry. i realli regretted telling the someone my feelings. if theres chance, i would not tell her and remain as friends. this time i'm serious.just friends. i'm not ready for relationship yet i guess.i'm realli sorry.. O levels here i come. beware.

2008-08-29T23:15:00.002+08:00

Happy Teachers Day! I would like to say a little abt me teachers. Like dedication.Haha.
To:
Mr John Paul Low- Thank you for everything you did for me and the class. You're well appreciated.
Mr Ng Wen Jye- i appreciated all the things u have done for me. i know i may be nonsensical but i appreciated everything though.
Mr Suhaini- terima kasih ah cikgu.
Mr Supandi- terima kasih cikgu. saya rase saya da improve la. ahaa.
Mrs Yeo- Thanks for teaching me this past 3 years. although sumtimes u get into my nerves but stii ur teaching realli helps.
Mr Yeo- Thanks for everything. You rocks. even though u may be strict but its for our own benefit. thanks. realli appreciated.
Mr Beh, Ms Foo- thanks for everything and stayed for the band.thanks
and to others who taught me and i didnt put u down mayb becos no time or i hate u. haha.

i realli regretted everything. good bye FOREVER!

2008-08-28T22:14:00.002+08:00

Back and worst than before. Been studying but does it pay off? i dunno. Chem today was a total disaster. srsly. disaster. dunno how to spell. here follow me. D-I-S-A-S-T-E-R! after paper went back to band. at the end was pissed off a little. whu must show power? same age eh. onli u now out of dunearn onli wad. knn. big meh alumni. fuck la ciibai. thats all ah.

Fine i will try to forget abt u. i won even get near u. srsly, since i'm ignored, hated. Fine! To hell woth relationship man. FUCK IT! i won even think abt it.But there are exception though.

2008-08-10T11:04:00.002+08:00

heyhey. happy national day singapore. haha. this yr the celebrationrealli bad. not the schol wan. the actual one. like knn sia. but they have put in lots of effort ah i mus say. gib credit. well, recently i have adopted a son.haha. guess who is it ah. actualli i dun know what to post eh. random onli.

i tink i will go on trying to please you. i srsly ---- you and cannot bare to leave u. or i cannot bear to live without u.

2008-08-06T22:27:00.002+08:00

hey.didn't come to school today.take passport mah. then afternoon came to school to touch up on dnt. yeah. finally it's done. i like it. kkz thats wraps up my day actually. hey anybody want to comment on my skin? tag.

i srsly dunno whats happening to me. everything i do reminds me of you. even though we've changed. i still ---- you.

2008-08-02T22:00:00.002+08:00

if u ask me whether am i in love? i would say i am.cos i've been thinking of her lately.i talked to her often now but merely as friends.i know that it's impossible for us now.she said it herself.but i just can't seem to let her go.i tried everything i could by her face keep appearing in my mind.if she were to be gone from this world,my life would be meaningless.i like her since last year thus quite hard to forget.for some, it's easy but for me is different.it's like some of my frens were saying just forget abt her.its easier said than done.well, if the only way to talk t her is by being her friend then by all means.but my ---- for her will become more.

2008-08-01T22:37:00.002+08:00

heyhey. Barney is a dinosaur. haha.had fun today.dnt stress must hand in next week.wah motherf sia.then recess went to hall.supposedly to slack but in the end kena help arrange table.wah piang eh.but nvr mind ah. then maths.then went to eat lunch before going mosque(disco).haha.was quite late then, akmal was complaining.
akmal>masih ade masa ke?da lambat la.
me>sabar la.
akmal>korang selalu gini kepe?
me>tak la.mane ade slalu. sekali seminggu.
akmal>(quite pissed off by my ans but still laugh)
after mosque was band.mr beh rich sia.hahah.dae yeop face funny sia. hahahaha.
when keeping the perc instr, the fantastic four created a remix.it was fun ah.from barney to random songs.hahah.then aft band went to play soccer at the court with syazwan,naz,mario,ting wei and others. we represent the DMB.we next team.so we were like anticipating the excitement.hahaha.when our team was up.we played like we nvr played before . baik ting wei.good job. we won all the matches suprisingly.we were the underdogs.haha.we end the day with a high note. we DMB consists of me, ting wei and syazwan. we vs the 4 jades.(naz,nabil and chris) we play tennis soccer. we won of course.chey action sia.haha.
I dun actually know what to do now. My mind is like turning and finding a place to rest. Should i just forget everyting that had happened? i dunno. i miss you thats for sure.the feeling is still there. even though we like talk nowadays.but its just different. if u are reading, i just wanna say that my feelings for you is still there.however, i respect ur decisions/

i still ---- you.<33

2008-07-28T23:22:00.002+08:00

well.hello.=) i'm back.sorry for not updating the past week.been busy lately.with the band comp and stuff. and yah. DMB got bronze 76.29%.at least we improve wad.A medal will always be a medal.But the experiences we learned and the obstacles we had to overcome will stay within us till we aged.and to those who will try to look down on us.be careful.you're at risk.will post pics next time.well. today had physics test.woah.never study.very good.S-T-U-P-I-D de le. then supandi class.cried sia.unbelievable eh.suddenly.then math mock test.wah.made many careless mistakes eh.Mr ng pardon me for the mistakes yah.haha.tmr wah sia.SS test.wah, teachers nowadays are free right.no need to mark anything.thats why give so many tests.FUN isit?????
today onli talk to Azimah on msn onli.to sum up everything.quite boring eh.

well.Love is not abt possessing someone.Its abt making that someone happy. So she happy i happy la.in other words.i still miss you though. =)

2008-07-18T21:34:00.002+08:00

kkz.First thing first, i got to say that even though we are friends now. I MISS YOU SO MUCH!
maybe this is akward but this is what i feel.ok. today,had dnt for 5 periods.kept calling the edusave thingy.ish,$287.65 eh.went to see ms foo during recess to clarify things.then had maths.got back my e maths paper 1 mock test.got 57/78.got A2.useless eh.my results sucks ok.i knoe.no need to say.during dnt lesson.listen to music and suddenly cried.then my friend ask me what happened.he then ask me,thinking of her again.thanks for your consideration.after school went to mosque with the muslim boys then came back for band.sectionals then finished.naz and ziyaad have mock test so waited for them.after that went to bball court to play soccer with teachers.my team consists of mostly students thrash the team of teachers 9-3.My team were Darryl,kimura,andrew,mr siva,shawn and two other sec 4s.that marks the end of my day.\

I REALLI REALLI MISS YOU!

2008-07-16T20:55:00.002+08:00

firstly,i would like to say sorry to all that i have offended today. iknow taht u guys might be thinking that why the boys and me act like this.wanna know why.heres why,we are like this all this while.and to the leaders of the band,please pardon our actions.thanks for ur understanding.i know taht we are not being fair like this,but fact is the matter is the world is unfair already.kkz,lets not make matters worst, to joey,jasmine.sorry abt today.i know u girls might be thinking whether to pump us.sorry again.well, todaay could have been a wonderful day without the glitches nearing the end of the sectionals.dun wanna mention it.just wanna say,i dun like people who pisses me off.thts all ah.no mood ah.

2008-07-14T21:32:00.002+08:00

hey guys. i'm back!!woots!ok thats crazy.but who cares.ok.Let me first tell u guys what happened today before i tell u guys a story.
Today(14/07/o8)-school starts at 8.30am.assembled in hall cause got mt listening compre briefing.oh yah,tmr lc.woots! yes ah.wakakaka.kkz,first period was A maths.went through the 2006 paper.then chem.went to lab.did experiment.recess.stayed in the hall.slacked with isaac,naz,ziyaad,syib and rz.then phys.slacked.then mt.had fun cause mr supandi was funny.wakakakakaka.then english.did work for one period then slacked.today had mock test for math.at the end,mr ng was quite angry with some of us.maybe it's me.cos quite no disciplined.told u that i'm more crazy right.wakakaka.SORRY MR NG IF I"VE ANGERED U.thats the end of today.

kkz.heres a story i'm willing to share to u guys-kkz.on 28th of april,i plucked my courage to tell someone that ilh through sms.guess it was at the wrong time.got rejected.sad.continue to sms her.but nvr have guts to talk face to face.everytime i see her,i'll try to occupy myself with some distractions.since then, my studies was a total failure and started slacking.even people like ziyaad and isaac told me that i've changed.but is it for the better or worst.for the first time in my life,i cried many times.my jealousy level also shoot up.but my eq sank lower and lower,deeper and deeper to the seabed.even like boon huat, maggie, chengsiang approached me and said that i've changed for the worst.i keep sleeping in class and not wanting to go tutorial and stuff like that.everytime after i cried,i consulted ziyaad,isaac,jasper and sometimes even claudia.i think that they are bored and tired to give me the same advice.but i realli wish to thank them for being by my side for this past month or so.thanks for ur advices.after all that had happened,i guess the situation is getting worst and worst.i'm becoming more of a jerk and easily provoked.so whoever i've offended this past month or so.i'm sorry.then came last sunday.i sat at one side of the room and started to think thoroughly and did much consideration.then i decided that its better to have friendship.thus chat with her in msn and told her that let forget what happen and be friends.she accepted but onli friends.i;m fine with that.now we are jst merely friends. moral of the story.choices have consequences.treasure ur friends cos when u're in a crisis.they will be there to help.and to those who are in this kindof situation.dun sit back.dun be like me.get distrcted by this.think of the proper action and it consequences b4 doing it. i may have said that i have nvr regretted making a decision.but now i have to sat.i've regretted making this decision.and to you,i wish u all the best.may u find ur mr right. so this is the end.dun be a fool like me,it's not worth it,the feelings that i have to overcome.the emotions that i have to encountered.just believe in yourself.have faith yyah.sadness is rarely seen.crying from a man/boy is also rarely seen,thus make the right choices.this is all i guess FOR now. a new chapter have yet to unveil.to be continued......

WAKAKAKA.

2008-07-13T21:19:00.002+08:00

hey guys guess what i'm back. the old me is back. finally.wakakaka. kkz, today was quite fun.first was at the morning,i help my mom sell rice.wierd ryte.wakakaka.then went home and slept till 4.45pm then went to see soccer match in Dunearn field. my uncle was playing.woots! hahaha.thats crazy hahaha. now,i blogging abt my day. Let's go Dmb! sibf! COMING.prepare for it.Lets make mr yeo proud and enjoy ourselves yah.yes ah.
To you: Lets be friend yah.

2008-07-09T06:12:00.002+08:00

hey,ppl!=) yest was youth day celebration.and the investiture.first time first investiture sucks to the max.the hall was stuffy and i cannot see anything wan.so sian.but the rest are okay.then had lesson till arnd 10.20am.after that i,ziyaad,jasper and nazrul went to the carnival.yeah me!hahax.wanted to dedicate a song but in the end no.hahax.continue to crap till 11.20aM.BTW JASPER LIKE .......hahaxzs.english lesson was fun cos mdm asrina nvr come yest so free.then SS boring to the max.no tutorial yes ah.actually have but finish the wksht before end of school.so yah.

Mt oral coming up.wah piang eh.scared bodoh.hahax.realli eh,srsly, i scared eh.i'm afraid i talk in englay(english+malay)hahax.nvr mind ah.i oso scared cannot answer question eh.hahax.tahts all for now ah.

hey,lets just be friends for now yah.i noe i've hurt u alot,made u angry,and stuff like that.Lets just be friends FOR NOW.my feelings for u will always remain the same.i guess i need to concentrate my 'o's.so yah.Friends?!

2008-07-07T22:38:00.002+08:00

Happy Youth Day!

Todae is youth day.Thus no school.Quite boring though.i kinda miss school.ok.here wad i did today.kkz.early morning woke up,played PS2 then bathed.at around 8am,stop then went to do hw.cant believe it.but i did.then ard 12 noon.went to kopitiam to buy food for family.then homed,slept till arnd 5plus,woke up do hw again.den now enjoying comp.blog-hopping.haha.thats my day.quite boring ryte.thats all.oh yah,btw just now my ceiling fan went crazy and started making wierd noises and spun many rounds.damn terryfying sial.i tot i gonna die sial.but no,hahax.

Fine.I will give u my blessings but that does mean i will stop loving you.i will always love you.i will wait for you.

If you're happy,i'm happy.=)

2008-07-04T23:07:00.002+08:00

hmm.played soccer today first with mackenzie and friends.then went to play against the teachers.thats the way andrew.hahax.and also baik ah Cikgu Suhaini.nice composure sial.hahax.today is quite a normal day.except for EV thingy.first five periods was Dnt.me,isaac and boon huat went to canteen to it.srsly oi cannot do there wan.too many distractions like NICHOLAS! hahax.then one period before recess me and 4 others were dismiss cos of EV. T first i thought EV was kind of terryfying but realli it's not.Thanks Wei Lin for giving me advice.You're greatly appreciated. thanks. She said that not to be scared and be yourself.and i did. i tried to even crack jokes during the EV.many questions were asked and many were answered so yah.then after the interview,me and 4 classmates went to see the EV person to clarify somethings.like exam tips.She told us to pace ourself.Dun tire yourself now or else no energy to do our 'o's.i would like to thank mrs Jennifer loh for that.She was the EV, very kind.tmr band will be small indeed.no doubt but a small band with dedicated members will do well.so yah.Go band! Jiayou for SIBF!DMB fight,fight,fight,

I srsly dunno wad happening to me now man.i';m easily provoked and get emotional too easily.wads this?! I may have said that If you're happy,i will be happy but why my heart think otherwise.i dunno.should i see a counsellor?! nah.!

2008-06-30T22:29:00.002+08:00

Well.Todae is quite a tiring day indeed,at least for.First period A maths.Mr ng teaching A maths while i try to chiong the e maths hw he gave us.then next was chem.Went to chem lab to do experiment.and btw 6 or 7 opalians join the class today.it was fun doing experiment.Nrxt was recess.No mood to eat at all.dunno why.after recess was physics,mr ow did corrections with us then mother tongue.mother tongue was fun.realli.then english.got test.F*** sia.Descriptive some more but still can cope ah.Guess what i write about?!hahaxz/

Tutorial on a maths. Me and boon huat chiong to finish it first then continue with homework.hardworking right...asif ah.then after tutorial went to art room to continue doing work.did dnt a little. english and more.did dnt until so sian and no mood to continue at home.at home continue with my works.do do do until like while doing i started crying.not bcos of hw ah.something else.onli ziyaad knoe abt this.Just finish watching my boss,my hero again.it's fun u guys should watch it.hahaxz.

i srsly dunno wad happen.If i've made a mistakes,i'm sorry.But are you avoiding me?! I dunno. Many things are wandering in my mind, making me sad and confused. I guess i have low emotional quotient i guess.

Am i useless?!I realli need advice but from who?! My friends yah.Who?! Tell me.I dun wan this to happen.realli.

If you're happy,i'm happy.=)

2008-06-27T23:40:00.002+08:00

I am not who i used to be.I am someone different.But yet again some does not like my attitude.But i can't please everybody right.Today me,jasper,ziyaad,nazrul,mackenzie and more played soccer today.It was fun but tiring i tell you.Here,i would like to say sorry to Rui Zhong.I think that it is my mistakes towards you just now.Even though,you have forgiven me,i still feel bad about it.And to Joey Tham,i'm very sorry if i have insulted the band indirectly that makes you unhappy about it.To those that i've have insulted and offended you,i'm very sorry.I will try my best not to repeat it again.I'm feeling remorseful and i admit my actions often provoke people and indirectly hurt others.So i'm really sorry.I know that some may think saying sorry is not enough then i dun''t know what to already.

If you're happy,i'm happy too.No matter what happens or how you treat me,I'll always be there for you and will always be.Even if you already have someone in mind,never mind i wish u the best but for now,i will wait.

And to those who knows this,please do not spread around.

2008-06-20T15:03:00.002+08:00

Name 20 you can think of right now. Don read the question before u name the the 20 people.At the end choose five people to do it.

1)Syazwan

2)Nazrul

3)Ziyaad

4)Azimah

5)Dayna

6)Joey tham

7)Rui zhong

8)nicholas

9)Bo wei

10)Syibli

11)Jasper

12)huldah

13)jasmine

14)Christine

15)Celine

16)Isaac

17)Claudia

18)Jedrek

19)Dae Yop

20)Aubrey

Q1)How did you meet 14?

In an intersting place called school and wonderful CCA called DMB!

Q2)What would you do if you didn't met 1?

Then i won have anyone to bully.Hahax.

Q3)What if no.9 & no.20 stead?

Iwish them luck.Hahax.

Q4)Will no. 6 and no.17 date?

Dunno.Don think so.

Q5)Describe 3.

Fun and easy to talk to i guess.

Q6)Is no.8 very attractive?

Yeah.I guess so.Hahax.

Q7)Describe no. 7 .

Tall, like to jokes around and very amusing.

Q8)Know any of no.12 family members?

Her sis.

Q9)What will you do if no.18 confesses to you that he/she likes you?

I'll scream and run away.I'm not gay.

Q10)What language does no.15 speaks?

Chinese.English.I guess.

Q11)Who is no.9 going out with?

Dunno.He's a playboy and got many girls.Hahax.

Q12)How old is no.16?

Same year born. But he ahead of me in age. He 17yrs already.

Q13)When is the last time you spoke to no.13?

Yesterday in msn.

Q14)Who is no.2favourite band/singer?

Linkin park.ANy girl band i guess.

Q15)You ever date no.4?

Not yet.Hahax.

Q16)Would you ever date no.17?

No. She got boyfreind liao.Even if she no boyfriend i will say no.

Q17)Is no.19 single?

SIngle. But he admire someone in the band. Hahax.

Q18)What is no.10 last name?

Raafe.Hahax.

Q19)Where does no.6 live?

Dunno.Don care.Hahax.

Q20)What is your favourite thing about no.5?

She is quite okay to talk to.

5 Persons to do this quiz.

1)Syazwan

2)Isaac

3)Claudia

4)Joey Tham

5) Ziyaad

2008-06-18T22:16:00.002+08:00

hey....i'm back.....changed my blogskin abt five times and finally come to a decision that this is the one i like...btw i have another blog created......for now onli 3 noes the address so yah....this week has been exhilirating for me cos i've been in the lab for 3 days alrd.....very fun indeed...get to see japaneseshow i guess and also the joy of playing games with frens....theres nazrul.Ziyaad.Alif Husaini and more.....this is all.

2008-06-11T17:39:00.002+08:00

helo...i'm back....i just want to wish everyone who had tried to cheer me up and talk some sense into me.....well guys...i'll try my best yah to cheer up.....even though it's hard.....kkz....today i had a very exciting and interesting day indeed....abt 7.50am...i met naz and ziyaad for breakfast.....had nasi lemak...woah power man....minutes later suddenly downpour from nowhere....went back to school to do dnt....went into dnt workshop ant 8.45am finish at 9.25am.....fast ryte.......pro wad...haha.....no la go there just to glue one stupid switch then poof...it's done...like magic......finally finish artefact....then after that went to art room and slacked till arnd 12pm....then went to play soccer till 4pm.....taught ziyyaad some things in soccer and hopefully he will improve......thats all.....

i will wait....cos isaac keep saying

patience is a virtue my friend..

2008-06-09T20:29:00.002+08:00

After two days so called hanging out at my sister's wedding...i'm totally exhausted......realli.....when a brown man says he's exhausted he is exhausted......i'm grateful that my sister had been married.......1st day....i help in washing the plates and cups till abt 9pm from 8am then i rest.....2nd day i help in the hall to become so called as a waiter......kkz...thats the highlight for me...

Ok....i'll respect ur decision.....since u dun wan to see me and dun wan me to look at u so be it....even if it takes forever....i'll wait...coz i cldn't get u out of my mind thats it.....i will always u....trust me on that...even if that takes forever......

2008-06-01T23:34:00.003+08:00

Got this quiz from claudia's blog.

1.How long will you wait fr someone u love?
Well....if its her...i will wait forever till the answer is yes...

2.What do you wanna do now?
See movie....sleep

3.What pet do you want the most?
No thxs.....pets....they will die in my hands...haha...

4.Do you hate your friends?
Depends....

5.Where do you wish to die?
Dunno....but thats a wicked question...

6.Do you beleive in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
yeah...guess so...

7.what impossible thing do you wish to do?
Get 4 points for O level...haa

8.Your darkest secret?
Secrets are not meant to be told and spread arnd...it will always be mine...

9.Are you happy with your life now??
Hell no....but i thank god for giving me this life...

10.What if your crush ask you out?
well....nobody will have a crush on me....but i do have someone in mind...

11.Describe your other half.
Slave. Always listen to others. Forgiving.

12.What moments do you hate the most?
When someone tell my secrets to the others.....you know who you are...

13.Do you cherish your friendship?
of cos.....better to make frens than enemy rytee.....

14.What are you looking forward to the coming weeks?
More smses.....pictures with her....

15.The most important thing in your life?
Everything.

16.Who you hope to be there for you?
Her!! My frens and family

17.Do you find life meaningless?
no why???

18.Who do you love most?
My family and her

19.The craziest thing you ever did?
everything....haaha

20.Whats your greatest wish?
For me to keep and for you to find out....

21.If you are given a choice between the person you love and a girl who is millions time preetier...who would you choose??? Why??? (halim)

Her.....i will always choose her dun ask me why......

Instructions:Remove one question from the above and add a personal one.
Tag 8 ppl and list them at te end of the post.
Notify them thru their blog.,tagboard.

Isaac
Joey Tham
Wei Lin
Athirah
Finna
Other 3

2008-06-01T23:20:00.002+08:00

hellooo......people...i'm back ....yeah...long time since i blog....kkz...last week was dnd camp.....b4 it was mt o level.....i think i screw it up man......haiz.....Dnd camp....i tot its gonna be fun but the onli fun part was the games....now the 5 rupearl is onli one game from winning 1st in soccer......yes ah...btw...been yalking to her for the past few days....it was fun....but i i cant seem to talk to her in person.....coward????scared???no courage????i dun know....but for sure i wanna talk to her much more......and to her.......i dun care abrt ur past....what i wan and need is the present....cos the past dpes not equal to the future......i will always ly......this is all...

2008-05-19T09:23:00.002+08:00

hiieee everyone......today is vesak day so first thing first...i'm gonna wish everybody who is celebrating it a happy vesak day....=)..now get to the real deal.....my mid year results.....its sucky for me...maybe i haven been concentrating enough yahh....too much playing i guess.....well....for sure its not complacency.....dun get it wrong...here are the results....
English paper 1-40.5/60
English Paper 2-24/50(this is totally outrageous)=
E maths paper 1-66/80
E maths paper 2-76/100
Social studies-18/50(expected to be lower cos nvr did many parts)
History-14/50(maybe lucky marks)
Mother tongue paper 1-44/70
Mother tongue paper 2-39/70 i think
Science(physics)-51/85
Science(Chemistry)-54/85
A maths paper 1-38/80
A maths paper 2-34/80
Design & Tech-43/100(unexpected ly get this marks)
This is actually all....this is very shocking.....yet it is very deserving.....told my mom my results.....she freaked out.....and i got a shouting by my mom...i think this goes my chance of going hong kong i think....i hope not.....yesterday, i stayed up till late...rreading from blog to blogs...i've learned how fragile a friendship was....so i've learned to treasure it...

secrets are meant to be kept mum....i hope those out there will respect that yaHH.....

SO this is then....tmr mt intensive....f*** man....
O level mt one more week....f*** man....

2008-05-13T17:28:00.002+08:00

yeas arh....exam is over....finally no more stress.....but i dun think i stress lei....lyke i never study for many of the papers...so yahh...no stress at all...but this choice i made will have a huge, enormous consequences though...i will have to face my report bk....furthermore....i must show it to my mom....i bet she's gonna scream and shout at me lyke mad.....but who cares realli....many even wanted me to fail(frens) as they see me as a obstacle.....but i got something to say to them...and here it goes...u all must believe in urself....i'm already slacking...i believe u guys can do it....dun quit yah... u will have my suppoort....dunno any questions..just ask the teachers in the class...theres no such thing as a stupid question...can ask me too but if i say i dunno....it means that i realli dunno...not bcos i am proud or guai lan(spelling)...and if i say i am gonna fail...dun reply me saying dun act or dun be humble...thats realli the truth....i know my limit...thats all i am gonna say....

today was a mixture of fun and boring day....fun part....exams is over.....played soccer with akmal,daryll,jasper,nazrul,wei lian and bakri....that was fun.... i enjoyed the game....but here comes the boring part....it starts to get boring when one by one started to leave....imagine having and 3 on 2 match....dmgg vs opalians...opal consists of jasper, daryll and wei lian...dmgg consists of me and nazrul....imagine that how tiring was that and further more the sun was freakish hot just now....btw dmgg lost to opalians 12-13...thats the highlight for today...so tmr is the results...i'm prepared though so bring it on you marksucking teachers...give me wat u got...so till den tata mates.....

Have i MAde the RigHt ChoiCe??

2008-05-10T19:29:00.002+08:00

aloha mates....it's been a long time since i blog i guess......there are two reeasons behind it though.....one: i don't think anyone is reading this blog so even if i blog noone realli cares...but i need to blog cos i need to express wad i cannot say out loud..... secondly: My com crashed, few weeks back so no chance to blog at al....sad...:(... but now i'm back..... Many thigs have happened to me this few weeks....some were fun while others realli makes me cry...but some are just too personal....this type of personal stuff just cannot be revealed....onli those who were with me for the past weeks know what i've been going through....thanks guys and girls who supported me thru....people like CS, BH, Isaac, Claudia, Nazrul,Ziyaad....You guys are great....Thank you men....These past weeks... iPlayed soccer for the past fridays....these were fun.....studied in JE library with isaac and ziyaad....that was fun too....hang out with my exam cliques....they were the following....Isaac,Claudia,Nazrul and ziyaad.....these were the people i love most this past week....and not to forget jedrek....however in life.....when theres happiness there will be sadness....tears filled my eyes starting from 28th april 2008.......i dun know whether wad i did was right but i believed it was right....and it will always be.....kkz....i gtg.....

No matter wad happened....i will always be there...i will wait until my bones starts to crack.....but for now...lets concentrate on mid yr....but after 13th may....believe me somethings gonna change...maybe even on 12th may i change...Change doesnt mean my feelings will change...

2008-04-18T21:41:00.004+08:00

Ok today is quite a fun experience for me at least....i don know abt the rest( Basically ziyaad, nazrul and Syazwan)... This is why its fun.... After school, while waiting for ziyaad and nazrul to finish.... went down and talk to azimah..... after thaat we proceeded to go mosque........on the way out of school... we bumped into mr beh.....then we persuade him to give us a ride to mosque...st first we were kidding and joking arnd....we tot mr beh will say no...but he said yes...we were utterly shock but quite happy....but crammed.....syazwan ah...........
after mosque, went back to tutorial....which i nvr attend......haha...lol...played soccer instead...played until 3 plus then isaac came with claudia and joined the game....tiring man....played until 5.45pm.....k thats abt wrapped up my day actually....

yes ah.....sec 3 camp over.......everything is back to normal.......

2008-04-17T21:12:00.002+08:00

Ok let the pics talk first.....

k ah ......my blogger got problems so onli these pics were being uploaded....today is basically a hard and tiring day......after scholl went to kopitiam and ate then went back school to play soccer......sori ah nazrul.....accidents happened man.....sori for the cut.........after playing for abt 1 hr....we proceed to art room where nazrul and ziyaad did their art while me...i did dnt of cos...arnd 6pm we left the art room and played another round of soccer for another 1 hr....

Nothing can change me when i am ina good mood man.....=)

Yeas ah....one more day thn sec 3 camp is over and everything will return to normal...

2008-04-17T02:21:00.004+08:00

the time now is like 2.22am.........yeah.....still awake wondering.........why do i have wierd feelings??????? i dun know........dun ask me.........now schoooll is quite boring.......u knw why???? after school....i'm alone most of the time.........Damn sec 3 camp man....... i hate this kind of feeling..........
Should i ask??????i dun noe..... if friendship is at stake then i rather dun ask......
bloody hell......nvr mind...... ah wait for the right time...........
i post later arghh.....

2008-04-15T21:09:00.002+08:00

k ah........sori people.....no pic yet....too busy ah.......what to do....'o' leevel........briefly tell you guys what happen just now....i sort of went to the dnt tutorial....wanna know why i sort of.....here's why....i am not there but my heaart and soul is in that room......so basically i'm there..... geet IT/??

btw I AM SO HAPPY AND IN A GOOD MOOD......WISH THIS COULD GO ON AND ON MAN......I LOVE MY LIFE.....

k ah thats all ah......

2008-04-14T22:04:00.002+08:00

Ok for the start...let me post some pics first.....since i am in a good mood... oK many thing have past...the sec 4s and 5s have already step down....the post have been given to the sec 3s already....although most dun agree with some of the arrangements made to the posts.......

TODAAY III am really in a good mood....Duunnnnno why.....

I would like to thank ZIYAAD AND NAZRUL for staying back with me todae.....AND TO ZIYAAD: SORRY abt the glasses.....NOT My fault oi.......... And Nazrul: must balance oi........

K ah....tmr i post more pics....

for now.....bye......

2008-02-05T21:24:00.000+08:00

Bowei and isaac after cross country at kfc....

Act cool siall....

F*** who???

Act cute sia...

Ish lamp post...can u spot the lamp post???

Ben Wu playing cards
Guan lim's Hand
ish....like gay sia...Guan lim face serious when sleeping...lol...

Yuan Chuan sleeping...

Guan Lim act sia....

Jerome sleeping.....

Yuan chuan again.....

Guan lim and ben wu paying chinese chess in the bus.....

Bo wei sleeps like boss sia....

Me torturing the lion...

Bo wei steam i guess??? lol sia

Is this heaven????

The DMGG

Santa is my fren...lol....

Time flew pass so fast that i'm still here and feeling lonely.....Although on the bright side,i got a group called the DMGG.....these were the people who i believe i can fall on(not literally),count on and trust........besides my friends......To those people in the band and school...i would like to sincerely apologise if i have do u any wrong....in anyway....

2007-11-23T22:15:00.000+08:00

hey,i"m back......today was quite ok la....frankly speaking.....in the morning,i went to school with nazrul....nazrul had stuffs with the library while me,i wanna practice my genting pieces....there were other peoples though...they were the higher woodwinds...mainly the clarinetists,oboeist and a flutists(i don noe the spelling)...but they never practice wth us though...we practice in the music room while them they practice outside the library....when we finished,we looked for ms foo to return the keys....ms foo then wanted us to help moving some stuffs to the dnt studio....ok ah actually my post is lame,boring etc.....without further ado,i would like to say NOTHING!!!....good bye.........

2007-11-22T08:26:00.000+08:00

hey, i'm back to blog......yes,i noe that my last post is last month but what the heck,who cares anyway......ytd i went 4 band.....i was supposed to meet isaac at 7.25am under my block.....i waited untill abt 7.40am then recieved a call frrom guan lim...meet him at busstop then.....both of us ended up waiting for isaac....later pei rong joined us.....at abt 8.04am....we decided to go to school.....isaac reached at abt 8.10am....he says that he's been waiting for us at then busstop since 8.03am.....we then told him we left the busstop at 8.04am....so no link la......ytd band was quite ok....several says that footdrills was tiring as they need to do loads of pumping....but in the end, they enjoy them.....hahaha.....lol..... we then proceed to the band room....we did warm-ups then proceed to play movement 3 of simple gifts....after doing this movement,we were given a break for abt 30mins but we were to be back 5mins earlier so that means ot is 25min break....after break we went through the rest of the competition pieces....then sectionals......at abt 12.56pm.....mr zhong ask us to play instant concert....it was fun....after the pieces.... several boys were asking for an encore but to no avail.....me,isaac,guan lim and yuan chuan then went to the toilet wit our instruments....we made lots of noise...but b4 we left,we played our tuning note....and guess it sound DAMN marvellous...we had no idea that the toilet has a very good echo system or wad.....after band we played frisby but only for a few mins then ms foo asked us to help her move some accesories from the band room to the dnt studio.....i kept askin myself,why the dnt studio???? that is that happened ytd..... and to those who thinks that this blog is gonna die....u better think twice....and to those who always say update my blog....better update yours first....this is all i gotta say...til next time.....

two more weeks to go b4 genting....4 more practice left....it seems so fast....next week we are gonna have audition....i really hope my whole section to be able to pass the auditions....it would be even lovely to see all those who are goin genting to pass the audition.....and to those who have yet to prepare....i only have one thing to say...Choices Have Consequences....if u wan to become a maid then go on with wat u are doing now....but if u wanna play den u'll have to participate 100% or more..................

2007-10-21T23:06:00.000+08:00

okokokok...i get it peoples... no need to say my blog goin to die or something....there is no way in this year the blog goin to die....its been onli 4 days since i post.....wad, u expect me to post ev eryday isit??? nah...i not a computer type of person who uses computer like 24/7..... ok...now lets change the subject.....lets talk about wad happened today...actually today is quite usual...a boring day... first, i woke up at 12 noon.... the minute i entered the kitchen i got a feeling that i will have to do something....indeed i was right, i have to sweep the floor in my house....wad a thing to do just the moment i got up...it is like doin ur homework when u have no school from tmr onwards....at 2pm, i followed my parents to my aunties, uncles,nephew,grandmother's houses.....in the first house i got a chance to play xbox 360....i gotta say it is cool man... next house i went to, i fell asleep so got nothing to say....next was my grandmother house.....my grandma keep tempting me to eat the chicken....i actually ate five....i don noe how much fat i took in but wad to do very tempting sia.... the next house i went to i watch smackdown...afterwards i went home....so i decided to blog since since someone threatened my dear blog.....haha...lol.... k gtg....

2007-10-17T18:44:00.000+08:00

wow...i can't believe it.... it is only 17th of october....i must wait for 2 months till i get my results back....haiz...boring sia at home...i wanna work...anyone got a job link,please let me know...i am in a dying state now....OMG i'm over-reacting...btw i'm serious anyone can get a job tell me...
today,actually i got to go for band but unfortunately i fell sick yesterday night(not sure wad time) so in the morning i ate a pill of panadol then went back 2 sleep....then around 2 plus....isaac called me...i refused t answer...haha...so he sms me...den i told him that i was sick....den he nvr replied.... later in the night i need to go to silat....actually i do not wan to go but my mom wants me to go so wad to do...k la gtg...bye

2007-10-04T17:40:00.000+08:00

hello...i'm back...today was kinda my last paper for 'n' level.... tday i had history and a math..... a math was quite simple...i guess...i don realli noe...during our math paper..some one phone suddenly rang...who was it??? well, for history i do not wanna talk abt it...i believe it was a disaster....y'all noe why, i completely did not do my section b which like half the marks overall...i was sad....i didn't mean to not do it..but what i studied is not applicable to the questions and i do not noe what the question was asking.... Mrs lee found out and see me and start asking me questions like; what happened, why u never do section b.... all i could reply was i don noe and it was hard...those were the words that came out of my mouth... i realli don noe what happen....this is all i got to say for my history..after math,i,boon huat,cs and timothy went to the library and play scrabble...it was so funny..CS kept insisting that there is such word as iraqi...Is there??? i just reached home and had taken my bath so i decided to blog....thats all for today....
Liverpool lost to Marseille 1-0... Yes ah...

Oh god, please help me.... i don wan to retain...please show me the light...

2007-10-03T17:56:00.000+08:00

Hey, i'm back.... i had just finish my e maths paper plus additional tutorial for history by mrs lee... Todaes paper was quite simple...i guess... for me it is easy to a certain extent... one thing for sure...wad i practice at home...never come out....haiz...this is always the case...i don noe why.... Today my paper starts at 2.00pm...it is damn tiring la...must stay in school until 2.00pm...what would u do?? i came at 7.00am even though i do not have any paper at 8.00am... i went to library hoping to study but in the end i fell asleep for a moment or two.....after about 11.00am, my frens from the art class came to the library and stayed with me...some played psp while others study...one of my fren then ask me questions...
my fren: Eh,halim, wanna throw these small-like ball and hit him?
Halim: well...ok..since it is so boring....
After that, we change to playing table soccer...lame right...sec 4 already still play this kind of game....but i got to say i realli had fun playing....whats more lame...there is this librarian wo keeps a watch on us so we never make noise....so everytime she wants to scolds us we get ready any kind of book to read....oh ya, i recieve my report book today...i was happy with my result...
what makes me happy was tha Manchester United won AS Roma 1-0 today... thats all for todae....

whatever we do, there will always be something or someone that opposes it....:p

2007-10-02T16:56:00.000+08:00

Hey, guess what??? I've created another blog.... Yea, i noe that i alreadi got a blog but that blog is dead....Wanna noe why i never update...... Duh!! LOL!! Btw, my "N" level have started and gonna end soon..... i realli hope that i can pass all my subjects especially my combined humanities...i've been failing it since the beginning of the year....sad huh.... but i am determined to pass it....
today 021007
i had 3 papers today....quite fun right.....it was chemistry,physics and add maths.
overall, i got to say i can do well in science....however in add math dun ask....terrifying...lol.
i've always hated this..... wanna noe what i mean??? everytime i finish my papers, few usually boys will come to me asking me questions...i don mind this but what i do mind was when they ask this questions......
Boys: Hey, halim...how was the paper???
When they ask me this question, i will be in a dilemma...u noe what i mean.... if i says the paper was easy..then they will say that i'm action and very proud..... if i say hard....then they will say that i was bluffing or something like that.... then if i say, i don noe...they will say i'm action...
so tell me what i gotta do....
this is all i've got to say....
if you have any comment....tag me once the tagboard is up or confront me in school....don keep comments about me to yourself and create rumours....

I need to face my own fear myself.....
Amandis said: Our deepest are that we are inadequate......
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